…I feel scared.
I love spending time with my 14 nieces and nephews. I started a company whose mission was to get kids more physically active. I’ve been coaching kids’ basketball since I was 14. I volunteer teaching kids how to cook healthy meals. I’m not sure if that makes me less selfish, but felt like I needed to clear the air before admitting my seemingly shallow thoughts about pregnancy.
I am recently married, about 6 months ago now, and everyone knows what happens next. Or at least what’s supposed to happen next. Family and friends ask me all the time “what’s next” like something is supposed to happen next… “When are the kids are coming?” I have the same reaction to that question as I do about all of these images of pregnant women working out; fear.
Pregnancy is something that brings excitement, new life, a new love, new hope. However, it also comes with the fear of losing something that feels vital to my being- training. I wanted to know if I’m alone in feeling this way when I see these images. I want to know if anyone else feels scared too.
PREGNANT TRAINING: MODIFYING MY PASSION
Revie Jane Shultz doing backsquats at 30 weeks pregnant. Featured Product: FASTLIFT 325
I have identified as an athlete since as young as 8, and if you read my previous post you understand how important training is to me:
“Unfortunately, hard work doesn’t always translate directly to the results I want to see, whether it’s in my personal or professional life. I crave that feeling of control, and in our chaotic lives training is the hour or two where I dictate the results. How hard I work, directly correlates to the outcome; no one else has a say.”
Images of pregnant women enduring a CrossFit workout terrify me. Not because of the usual conversation about the safety of mother and baby, but for completely selfish reasons. Making the decision to have a baby requires accepting that for at least the next 9 months, I will need to sacrifice my personal passion. It terrifies me in the way of thinking about spending almost a year “modifying” workouts. Will I feel the same satisfaction stepping up measuredly onto the box jump, or leaning against the wall to do a push up?
I see images of women pushing through a workout with an extra 30lbs on their front and I wonder if I will be able to push through whatever a pregnancy may throw at me. I’m scared the unpredictable, notorious hormonal changes will leave me without the energy to carry a baby around, let alone workout. How will my competitive nature handle it to watch others continue to do what I love doing and am not able to do?
Who knows what pregnancy and childbirth will bring. All I can hope is that my training can make me a strong mom like many others such as Taz Barber, pictured.
At inov-8 we work with a lot of talented, competitive athletes. Having worked at inov-8 for almost four years now, I’ve watched as they grow and with some, their priorities slowly shifted. I have seen five women and three male athletes make the conscious decision to put competition on hold in order to focus on starting and raising a family. As a competitive athlete, the decision and sacrifice is even harder. These years of your prime where you could have accomplished a new goal, won a dream race, or continued to improve your athletic performance, would be wasted. Not wasted; but having a baby may potentially set you back.
@Nana_Health Working out with her kids
KNOWING THERE IS MORE
At some point, I know this rant sounds ridiculous. I know that there is more to life than just training. It is something I enjoy doing, but it isn’t all I am. I know I will be fine scaling back for a little bit. Four time CrossFit Games athlete Lindsey Valenzuela just recently posted about completing 16.1 pregnant and scaling the workout. In response, people tried comparing their pregnant score to her pregnant score- a new category in the Opens apparently… who is the fittest pregnant person in the world? No. That is not necessary- there is more to life than training and Lindsey did a great job addressing that. She knows that the health of her and her future son are much more important than a workout score.
Luckily, I am surrounded by women who’ve made it work. I am continuously inspired by these women who not only continued their athletic pursuit after children, but they are continuously improving. At inov-8, we have the privilege of working with and watching the inspiring Revie Jane who currently owns her own business, coaches, and has been working out through her pregnancy. Or Taz Barber who competed on Team NorCal in the CrossFit Games after having her son and just recently had their second son. Or in my personal life, my sister in law – mother of two kids, owns a business as a personal trainer training moms and families to stay fit and healthy. And of course, my mom, who 30 years after giving birth to me is still competing- racing in Spartan Races with me and getting ready for her next challenge- a chance at the Masters National Track & Field championships.
So I guess what I should think of when I see these images is not fear, but instead to be inspired there are Women out there like me, who have made this possible.